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Thursday, March 30, 2006
hey.
thanks for the smses cards notes presents hugs IMs and everything else.
and thanks for remembering! hoho.
and since i told zoey i would thank her on my blog. thanks girl!
i feel mean. my mum got drenched getting me my cake. oops. but this year i decided to change my cake! since p3 ie 2001, ive been getting the exact same cake- whitechoc but this year i decided to try cheesecake! since my bro and sis took cheesecake. mmm. cut cake later!
march is the birthday month. let me tell you why.
5march nancy
8march mj
10march kor
14march zhiyu
15march evan
17march ying
20march ruoting
21march pris. mike
26march jie. joshua
31march. brandon
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came home after ora briefing and the security guard told me that some person was trying to stuff something into my letterbox. so i just went to see who that was.
i was there standing and watching and was very amused. and this was what i saw:
someone about 1.7m, wearing boardshorts and a nike shirt muttering to himself. he attempts repeatedly to shove a packet into the thin slit. he bents down peering into the slit and makes one last attempt to get it in. it's now or never. he gives it a hard push and a tear appears in the brightly-coloured wrapping paper. he ripped it. he makes some weird noises and inspects the tear and tries to tie the torn sides together, but ends up tearing it even more.
couldnt help it anymore so i burst out laughing. amusement!
PLEASE LA JON. my goodness, is this what rj teaches you- stuffing what obviously is too huge for the slit into a letterbox? shakes head. pass it to me on saturday la! but lol, you made my day.
well apparently he wanted to pass it to me personally but he couldnt get me on my phone so he decided to leave it in the letterbox. which is so obviously too small for the present! and tying the torn sides together. LOL. ive got nothing left to say. was super amusing. if i didnt know you i would think you're some crazy weirdo who has no common sense.
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slept at close to 4 yesterday. but felt relatively fresh today for some reason. maybe because when i reached home yesterday i took a nap for 1 hour. so it was pretty much okay. went to bed at about 1140 but my parents woke me up soon because wx called me and my parents thought he needed to talk to me and i should talk to him. talked for quite a while and he was okay so yay. i was about to go to bed. then brandon called my phone. so i sat in the living room and talked and stuff.
see when i say you can call me anytime i mean it! im not just saying empty words. i do mean it! i mean i try to always be there for others when they need me. but so far i dont think anyone except a certain few dare to call/sms me in the middle of the night for some weird reason. hmmm. peiling doesnt bite!
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anyway whats the use of being a year older without reflecting?
speaking of reflections, my s&d topic is "why we should think!" it's a pretty serious topic so i dont know whether i should do that or do "why we should watch barney/sesame street" or something like that. but the topic is really what i want to do. so shrugs, i guess i shall just stick to it. hoho.
you can ignore this whole part. because this is basically for me me and me. and i would be writing this down on paper if not for the fact that my hand will ache and my thoughts move faster than my hand. typing is so much easier and faster. so basically you can ignore this whole part because i think you will die of boredom reading it.
30march2005-29march2006.
the previous year was pretty much filled with problems. what with my spiritual walk with God, relationship problems, communication breakdown and all sorts of things. and i guess it's because my spiritual life went down in the middle of the year. i wasnt spending as much time as i should have with God and i wasnt putting Him first in my life, and i was starting to conform to the world's/other people's standards, and facades and all etc. and once my spiritual life is not the way it should be, everything starts to go haywire, everything starts screwing up and my life starts becoming a mess- though i know it didnt look like it was in a mess, oh the power of outward appearances. but i really thank God for the opportunity to be in the camp comm and they really helped me a lot and i guess through them God pulled me out from the pits and put me firmly on solid rock again.
it's very obvious how my life changes when i am close to God. last time my tolerance level was zero, okay not zero but it was low. and now it's increasing slowly and ive not really argued with anyone. which is something im proud of. and of course i have outbursts sometimes but i dont quarrel with my parents that much anymore. and when im close to God, everything just falls into place, even if it seems to go wrong at first, it always turns out for the better.
guess i started off pretty well this year. i mean because it was after dec camp and all. so yeah, my spiritual level was pretty high. there was this incident that made me pretty upset, but after praying continuously it's all okay now and it's better than before. smiles. really showed me that sometimes i neglect the most obvious things. although this year i think academically im performing below my standard, my life is much better since school is afterall NOT my life. and im able to talk to others even better and relate to them and help them and everything. and spending my time doing major and important things instead of irrelevant and unimportant things.
and marchcamp. it really made me think a lot. a little more than i usually think. and i guess my thoughts have really helped me in understanding myself, and knowing which ways i should improve on and work towards it. despite the rather painful process of thinking and thinking and thinking, i emerge stronger and i guess perhaps closer to God, and learning how to really leave everything at His feet and not take it back. thinking is good no doubt. at least it is for me, if i manage to get out of it.
but now that school has reopened and term2 has started. i feel that my spiritual level is not steady and it's fluctuating and i fear that it will take a dip. it always does. at least for last year it did, everytime school reopened. what with the lack of time and the half-sleepiness when im doing my QT. so far it's been pretty much okay, but it's only the 2nd week of term 2 and 1st week of proper lessons and there's still a long way more to go. and i really need to pray that it will not take a downturn. because i know everytime it takes a downturn it takes a lot of effort and a lot of prayer and a lot of help from other people to get it right again. and oh well ive been thinking about that for the past few days. must set my priorities right and everything. oh well shall pray about it and see how everything goes. my thinking is continuing now. it's starting to evolve from something not troublesome to something well not so easy to handle. but i guess it will be fine. or at least i hope it will be fine.
i cannot stand having a spiritually low life. but why do i keep having this feeling that it will dip and it will take a huge dip and it will be more problematic than any of the previous times. but oh well, yes i shall take it as it goes. and pray about it.
but i cant help worrying. a fluctuating spiritual life just worries me a lot.
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okay now that you have skipped the whole chunk. i shall reply tags starting from hannah's because i scrolled down randomly and my mouse stopped there. lol.
hannah: lol. you just need practice before you pull off the "who are you" thing. and lol! if you had tagged every 1 minute until midnight i would have like what 20posts wishing me happy early birthday. lol! and you, must talk to me if you're feeling troubled okay! it's not good to keep it inside you. shakes head.
becky: i am not weird! pffft. i completed my SI pretty quickly. though my experiment took like 4 hours because i was measuring hourly. and hot water. shudders. lol my wishlist was like right at the end. i think 15 march or something like that. but IT DOESNT MATTER!
waiian: i read your lj! but i dont tag. eeyer.
xhui: lol why am i being ego? and thanks for your wish! (:
jon: my hand wasnt in bandages. but my bro had a plaster on his arm! that's even worse right. not like it was his fault. bleargh. i feel mean. AND YOU MADE MY DAY TODAY DUDE. so amusing. you arh. tsk. speechless.
shihui: ehh. if you feel sad you must go talk to someone okay! like me! hoho. no la, talk to whoever you are comfortable with. or if not, you can just pray. (: and hahas i sort of agree, i cant really stand people who just talk nonsense.
jere: your photo! hahas yes i know. i was looking through my cam because photos of nature calm me down and i saw your pic and i was like lol! but i was feeling better already la. laughs. and thanks!
char: yes. so i smile. hoho. thanks!
chloe: LOL! the stuff in my brain ooze out of my ears. shudders. BUT IT HASNT HAPPENED TO ME YET! hoho. so what you said does not apply to me! and cadenza! hoho. im going im going! jumps around. and dont feel cheapskate my dear!
kellie: hello! yes you see my wishlist. yay.
sher: HELLO! yes you finally decided to tag. yay nice photos. im suddenly in love with taking photos. (: yay. and you must learn how to make pretty blogskins. and and remember good friday- go to the beach with me if you're free that is. and band concert!
ning: lol. congratulations on your marriage to sarah chong xin! hahhas. i pity you la. till death do you part. sighh. you're bound to her. AND YOU DO NOT GOBBLE ME UP. because i have legs and therefore i can run unlike you who has big teeth and uses your TEETH to run!
brandon: lol thanks! hoho it's YOUR day tmr. whee. and np about yesterday man. ive done that to you quite a few times before too! xD
simin: thanks dear.
nette: pfft. YOU'RE 14 AND IM 14. you're not older than me! rawrr. and thanks! hoho.
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cut cake! and think. hoho.
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ah who's going for band concert! why doesnt anyone want to go. ):
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